01
The doctor visit
Dr. Siddiqi walked into the room, took one look at me, reviewed my
vitals, put a hand on my shoulder, and asked, “John, what are we
doing?” It was not anger. It was the kind of disappointment that
makes you realize the truth has been obvious to everyone but you.
He made it clear how serious things had become and left me with a
simple understanding: if I wanted a future that was not defined
by medication and declining health, I needed to change right away.
02
The Atlanta intersection
Not long after that, I was in Atlanta with a friend and his
brother-in-law, who was older than me and dealing with many of
the same issues I was. He was overweight, exhausted, and
struggling with severe sleep apnea. After lunch, he tripped
stepping onto a curb in the middle of a busy intersection and got
stuck on his back until my friend and I helped him up. No one
laughed, but the pity in the air was impossible to miss. In that
moment, I saw a version of my own future that I did not want.